I really feel like I have insomnia. Ever since Jen left (which is 4 weeks ago almost), I have found it increasingly difficult to sleep. Reasons can vary, but I always knew that I could sleep and sleep well when I eventually *got* to sleep. Now it's 'when I get to sleep, I'll wake up at 6am on the dot'.
Not sure why this has started. I thought I'd be able to get back to a normal sleeping pattern once she came back, but still- early rising...and even early to bed on some occaisions, it's been impossible to sleep. Garrgghhh.....
Now that Jen is back, I'm relishing every opportunity I have to spend with her. I know she feels the same way because we both realise the days are getting longer here, which means time in Oz for her (until she comes back in January) is running out. And although we have 2 weeks in Canuksville together, it seems like the end of a wonderful few months...and I don't want that. The one good thing that I keep thinking about is that it's due to start up again in a few months time.
She's already started to become a lot less touristy and a lot more...well...naturalised in her way of Australian life. We opened a bank account for her the other day, and I think that was the point in which she thought 'Shit...I'm really doing this now'.
I just hope she has fun in Florida. She's been pensive over whether she should go or not. There are plenty of pros to whether she should go, but also a lot of cons now..most of all the fact that money will be an issue. Also the fact that we will be apart, but I think we can make it through that period..it's mainly the financial side, as opposed to coming here instead, getting a job and paying her debts that she has accumulated whilst here, which I can understand.
Whilst I want her to be happy as far as what she is doing, I don't want her to throw away a chance of a lifetime. If you asked me what I wanted ideally (and selfishly), of course I would say I want her to be with me and not in Florida..but she knows she'll benefit from it, so we'll grin and bear all the cons that come with the trip for her :S
Current Location: work...still with 90 min til beer o clock
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